Today the ship I am on is at sea.  I am having a very good time overall, however today I have been so tired.  I am also fighting with some depression issues today about my body.  I sat by the pool quite sometime today and just people watched.  I need all the prayers I can get, because normally I am very positive.  I am not feeling that way today because of some of the things I have witnessed.  I am tired today of fighting the disgusting looks I get when I eat something from some people, I am also tired of people whispering about me like I am not there.  I know these people are not worth my effort, but I am a people pleaser by nature and feel somehow I must compensate for my downfalls.  My family says they are very proud of me and the way I have eaten and kept more busy than usual.  I have to admit, since I can't weigh in here I am really afraid that I am not doing well.  I know that I am eating right, however when you don't have something to gage it with, it can be difficult.  I just want to be healthy and normal. Please God help me on my journey and thank you for all the people that are rooting for me.xo